Conscience

This is just a part of my feelings,
"something" that sometimes been crazy,
happy for no reason,
sad because of the past,
regret of something that I can't even remember what it is about.


"Your voices still fills my memories. Everything about you is still alive. Its never dead.

I once ever asked myself. What had happened actually? What is wrong? No one answer me.

It is about our egos. We denied it all and pretend like we had finished and between us nothing is left.

We almost forget that the day before, we share laugh and tears. And heartbeats too.

We comfort each other feelings and swept all the sadness, fulfill our days with happiness.

Promise that we will keep the love together. And not to hurt each other.

I can't live a day without your good night text. Saying that I always miss you for every second.

How could you still pretend that nothing happend between us? How could you left everything just like that?

All those question twist to myself. How could I let everything ends? Admit. It's all my fault.

Forgive me. For pushing you down. Forgive me. Forgive me.

I realize everything was not going to be happy ending from the start. But pretend that it will be alright.

And we will be happy. Even in a short time. Still enough for me.

Now you can put the blame on me. Point it all to me. It is me who take you for granted. For my own sake. 

When the time come, I will put you back on your place. Place where I found you. And take you with me.

Once again. Forgive me.

We're both still young, at that time. We love too much. We care less.

We ignore our inner feelings. Whenever it hurts inside, we hide it away. Pretend nothing happen.

Till we grow hatred to each other. No it is not hatred. But egos, for sure.

Do you still mad at me?

Do the hatred still there?

Forgive me.

One thing, for sure. I'm still thinking of you. Missing you, sometimes.

Everyday, I remind myself.

Forget the sorrow and move on. If you ever miss me, speak it out. It is not an offense. Because we ever miss each other in past. It doesn't matter.

Thanks for pay a visit in my dreams. Thanks for everything. It never dead. My memories always full of it. :)

Trying to go back to the past is

the hardest thing I ever tried.

So, I decide not to looking back. Ever.

Let the past be the past, appreciate the present.

Moves on.

Selamat Hari Wanita.

Salam Jumaat.
Salam Mac.
Salam Hari Wanita.

First dengar Madam Sue ckp hari ni hari wanita sedunia, terus rasa mcm, Oh. So sweet. Bestnya jadi wanita. Dihargai dan diingati.

Apa yang orang tahu tentang wanita? Siapa wanita?

Wanita itu adalah di antara ciptaan Allah yang sangat indah. Wanita itu cantik. Cantik yang tersendiri. Kerana Allah tidak menciptakan wanita itu semuanya dengan rupa paras yang sama ataupun kecantikan yang sama. Allah bagi yang berbeza-beza namun wanita itu tetap cantik.

Wanita itu....
sensitif,
cepat beremosi,
suka bergaul,
sukakan perhatian,
comel,
manja,
garang,
bengis,
tegas,
prihatin,
ego tetapi mudah bersimpati,
lembut,
penyayang,
pemaaf,
suka ketawa,
mudah menangis,
seorang ibu,
berjiwa kental............................

terlalu banyak dan tak mampu nak senaraikan semua sifat2 wanita kerana wanita terlalu ISTIMEWA.

Hargailah wanita anda. Allah ciptakan wanita sebagai seorang yang menenangkan. Menyejukan hati. Mendamaikan.


Aku wanita. Hati aku keras, tak selembut sutera. Cara aku kasar, tak semanis yang mereka sangka. Senyuman aku kekok, tak seindah bunga. Tapi kerana Allah tetapkan aku sebagai wanita, aku masih cantik. Kerana cantik itu adalah kurniaan-Nya.

Wanita. Jaga diri. Jaga maruah. Jaga harga diri. Jaga budi bahasa. Nilai seorang wanita itu sangat tinggi, jangan jadikan ia terlalu murah.