Obses. Suka. Atau Terpengaruh?

Salam.

Pagi ni bangun dengan senyuman. Mata dah fully bukak, tapi terasa mcm nak pejam balik. Nak kejar balik mimpi tadi. Nak tidur balik. Aku dah mcm curious sgt nak tahu ending mimpi tu. wuwuwuwu. *nangis*

Aku mimpi sorang laki. Hensem sangat. Baik. Pemalu tapi ramah. Dan yg paling mahal dalam mimpi tu, dia doktor pakar bedah. Umur dia maybe dalam 20-an sebab nampak muda lagi. Senyuman dia, gentle sgt.

Aku pun tak tahu hujung pangkal mimpi tu and tak dpt nak describe mcm mana, tapi yang pasti laki tu anak kawan bapak aku.

Entah mcm mana dia boleh ada kat rumah aku dengan bapak and adik dia sekali. Aku masuk bilik, then dengar mcm orang gosip2 yang laki tu hensem, and suka dengan perempuan yang lemah lembut, bertudung. Kira dia demand la bab2 perempuan idaman dia. Aku dlm bilik terus mcm, "Err.. ok. Aku tak lemah lembut, kasar and gagah perkasa and free hair. So tak da harapan. Lupakan."

Lepas tu selamber je aku keluar dari bilik, bukak buku and study. Masa tu kat ruang tamu. Takda sesapa kecuali laki tu and adik dia tengah duduk atas sofa sambil tengok tv. Dlm mimpi tu, aku assume yang bapak aku and bapak dia keluar kejap, hisap rokok. Biasa org laki. Mak aku busy kat dapur bancuh air. So kat ruang tamu tu just kami bertiga.

Tetiba dia tegur aku. "Mcm mana study, ok tak?"

Aku pun mcm terkesima sekejap. Tak sangka dia nak tegur. Then, aku jawab simple je, "boleh laa."

Lepas tu dia tanya lagi, "Dah berapa kali test?"

"Baru dua kali, Test 1 & 2."

"Mcm mana suasana exam?"

"Mcm biasa, lecturer masuk kelas ckp hr ni ada test. Dia bagi 10 minit wat revision ke, hafal formula ke apa2 jela. Cukup masa, dia suruh tutup buku and start test. Dah habis, boleh balik. Tu jela."

Kemain aku explain. Punya eksaited tapi sorok2.

Dia senyum je.

Entah mcm mana tetiba ada scene aku and member2 pegi shopping mall. Lepas tu Zati ajak aku teman dia pegi farmasi dekat dlm mall tu nak beli apa tah. Lepas beli semua aku dengan eksaitednya pegi dekat Yaya and story mory la pasal laki tu.

"Yaya! Semalam, doktor pakar bedah tu tegur aku weiii. Di tanya aku pasal study and test!" Dengan nada suara mcm orang menang duit ribu riban. Terselah sgt eksaited aku masa tu. Macam mana aku dlm realiti, mcm tulah aku kat dlm mimpi. Depan org yg aku suka, aku relax je, belakang dia, kemain melompat2 dengan member aku time storymory.

Nak jadi cerita. Tetiba aku tertoleh belakang and nampak laki tu duduk atas kerusi bertentangan dengan tempat aku and member2 duduk. Slow je dia panggung kepala and pandang aku dengan pandangan yang paling polos, suci and tak tau ar nk ckp macam mana. Muka dia relax je. Tak terkejut tak apa. Priceless.

Aku pulak dah mcm kena renjatan letrik lepas nampak laki tu. Lintang pukang lari sambil jerit, "Arhhhhh aku malu weiii malu malu malu maluuuuuuuuuuuuuu....." sepanjang jalan sampai masuk dalam toilet. Kebetulan masa nak masuk toilet tu, aku perasan yang aku selisih dengan adik laki dia and dia pandang aku pelik sgt.  Yela, dah mcm orang kena histeria.

Lepas tu aku intai bawah pintu toilet and nampak kaki Yaya, Ika and Zati otw nak masuk toilet cari aku.

Aku bukak pintu and terus peluk Yaya.

"Yaya aku maluuuu.... aku tak mau keluar. Aku malu. Aku malu."

Dorang apa lagi. Mengekek ketawakan aku.

Selamber je Yaya cakap, "Relax arr.. bukan dia sorang doktor pakar bedah. Ramai lagi. Ala... dia tak dengar la weii.."

Tipu. Aku yakin sangat dia dengar. And sumpah aku malu sampai rasa nak flush muka dlm mangkuk jamban. Damn. -____________-

Lepas tu aku terus terjaga and scene tu habis dlm toilet. *cilake*

Aku nak describe sikit ciri2 fizikal laki tu walaupun tak tau nama.

Bentuk muka dia tak panjang sgt, oval tu ada la sikit2. Putih. Chubby sikit. Sikit je, pipi dia mcm berisi sikit. Comel. Rambut dia kerinting and nampak mcm rambut baby. Lembut. Tak tinggi sgt. Sederhana. Aku rasa ciri2 dia lebih kurang mcm hafiz awan nano. Ada la, sikit.

Hm. Aku pun tak tau mana datang punca tetiba termimpi mcm tu. Maybe semalam tido lambat, and tengok variaty show korea, Big Bang pulak tu. Aku ada jugak la intai2 gambar Hafiz Zainal, belog dia.

Maybe jenis aku ni tak boleh tengok orang hensem. Mesti terbawak2 dlm mimpi.

Tak pasti sama ada aku ni ekceli obses, suka atau sekadar terpengaruh dengan lelaki hensem yang aku tgk tiap2 hari sampaikan aku jadi mcm ni.

Arghhhhh aku ada penyakit pelik. Bukan niat aku nak suka dengan laki hensem ja, bukan niat aku nak demand lebih2. Bukan. Aku tak mintak semua tu. Naturally happen. Tau. Semua org akan cakap yg aku ni, hidung tak mancung, pipi tersorong-sorong. Maafkan saya. : /

I'm just a little girl with a big dream.

Forgive me for being that way.

Mayat Hidup is Here

Oh stress! Oh stress! ssstttttttttreeeeeeesssss! *pegang kepala hantuk kat dinding*

Officially, baru lepas test math. Keadaan masih lagi kronik. Mata dah separuh bukak, tapi jari jemari yang tak berapa nak comey ni, yang kontot-kontot ni, nak jugak menaip. *gian*

Rasa mcm nak kuak lentang, mengesot, merangkak, mengepak, tergolek terlentang atas karpet dlm bilik. *oh heaven* Semalam punya study sampai pukul 3 pagi. wuwuwu. Nak test. Kononnya. Kalau study awal lupa, study last minute, sakit habis badan2, otak, otot, sel-sel semua mcm dh nak mati. Tak larat nak hidup. Memang tak sanggup nak hidup time tu.

Susah. Rasa mcm nak koyak2 kertas soalan and telan semua. Settle.

Apa la dosa aku pagi2 Jumaat yg mulia, penuh rahmat, penghulu segala hari lagi. Kena hadap test yang mencabar keimanan dan harus menahan tahap kecarutan yg maxima.Tapi hari ni banyak lelaki hensem. So dapatlah me'neutralkan balik ion-ion negatif dlm badan aku yang rasa mcm nak carut je. Comel Adam2 kt sini erbaju melayu semua. *wiwittt* "Hensem dah, bang." Sambil jalan, sambil tego abang2 enginia yg tgh bersolek depan cermin notice board. Terus muka ketat. Control. Kuis-kuis rambut sikit, angkat kening, jalan mendada. Bajet. puiii hahaha.

Tapi. Tapi lagi. Lepas habis kelas tadi. We all ramai2 jalan dekat LP. Tiba2 mcm, ehh.. asal ramai sgt? Ada booth apa ntah kat tengah2 tu. Yang pasti student Pharmacy. Ramai sgt berjaket hitam n sedang berkempen hapa aku tak pasti. Just nampak satu booth jual Vitamin C je. Kena pulak laki pulak yg jaga booth tu. *sweet*

On the spot mata aku terkebil-kebil. Nak segar tak segar. Tengok laki hensem. Yang sepet pun boleh jadi terbeliak terjojol keluar mcm mata ikan uji rashid. hohoho.

Sukee sangat tengok student laki pharmacy. encem. omey. cuweet. putih. *pengsan*

Aku rasa hobi aku tengok lelaki hensem. *muntah hijau*

Diri ini yang terasa seperti mayat hidup tadi terus terasa macam hidup semula. Segar. Senyum sepanjang jalan. Balik rumah terus rasa mcm nak isi application form utk proceed study course pharmacy. Dapat jumpa laki hensem hari2. *pengsan lagi*

Dear Mr Right,

izinkan saya berangan sebentar muka awak mcm mana.

heeeeeee :)

wak ensem kan? aminn :*

A short love letter to unknown soulmate...

Dear, unknown soulmate,

Do you have a slanting eyes? I mean, korean type or chinese, just fine for me. A long and tied hair? Nevermind if it's curly or straight, I'm okay with that. Ermm.. a tough body and a wide shoulder? You must be tall, too! 170cm and above. Errr, milky skin? Tanned? Still acceptable. Maybe I have a weird problem with my eyes, it obviously stunned at flower boy type rather than masculine! Always! Always! Oh no, cut it off, please. I can twisted my taste if I'm really into you, believe it. Okay then. Do you wearing V-neck t-shirt? Wearing spectacles? Ermm.. I guess it's still okay without that. Both must look good on you.

Gosh! Dear, Mr Right, soul mate, Last Love, or whatsoever. What took you so long to find a way to my heart? I'm cold here waiting for you. Even the roses started to changed into pale. Cracking and die! Damn. Everything was really a dream. Too possible to be reality. And you, Mr Right, soul mate, sweetheart, last love, forever love, or whatever! I'm sorry for watching too much Korean drama and artist variety shows. To be honest, I am K-Pop and K-Drama lovers. I am too deeply in love with them. Their styles really wash my brain. Especially a men with a long and tied hair. I can't get rid of it! Seriously. I'm talking this to the honest. And I'm really sorry. 

Please accept me as I am, and I promise to accept you as you are even you don't have a little look like a Korean actor. Nevermind, once I say I love you, I really mean that. One more, please accept my flaws. I really hope you do. Every person must be dreaming of perfection, but the truth, it is the love and honesty that making you perfect even you're really not. Your heart knows the best. Don't waste your time looking for a perfect match, dreaming is okay, but make sure you're awake on time! Don't dream too long, dude. I'm still waiting even I always day dreaming about having a perfect flower boy as my soul mate. Oh, damn. Please find a way, my love! And don't take too much time. I'm sick for falling in love with different guys (korean actor) every time I watched them on drama or movies. I just want you. Only you! Take my word as granted, dear. Because I really mean that with all my heart pondering you... :')

Sincerely,

Your unknown spouse-to-be,

XOXO

Big Bratha.

Once again. Forgive me for being late. I'm not intend to be late, but normal people do run out of ideas. And at that moment, they stop working, stop typing, stop doing whatever they're doing. So am I. If you are not, means you are not us, 'normal people'. Maybe machine. Or Simsimi? Cleverboat? Never run out of ideas to answering and talking with thousand billion trillion people all over the world. Hell shit. You. Machine.

Well. Yeah. I wrote the title up there three days ago, but. Too tired to continue. Enough for title. Hey. It can be consider more than enough ok. At least. -_________-

Hm. My elder brother had returned to KL four days ago. Well, before his leaving, me and sister cooks some Korean Udon Seafood for him. As he doesn't take any breakfast or meal.

"That boy, always busy with his whatever unfinished business, even an hour before his leaving." Mom's nagging.

"Stop acting busy, sit down here and eat your noodles. You little rascal!" Mom's temper get higher seeing her son just ignore his bowl full of udon. She grab a wooden spoon and throw it but luckily my bro managed to avoid it before it crash onto wall.

Phewwww. It was really near.

End up he agreed and sat down to enjoy his last meal before leaving. While eating, his phone keep ringing. A friend of him, of course.

"Mom. He will be here not less than 10 minutes. I need to hurry." Guess what? He's talking with his mouth full of noodles.

Without thinking even a 0.0015 second, he just swallow all the noodles left and blurp the soups too! Hey, dude. Are you a man? Or.... errrr =.=

Such a fast-eater.

I am who is behind him. The one who took the noodles earlier. Do burp one to two times, but hey, look! I still have my noodles in the bowl.

Everyone was amazed by his giant-fast-eater or whatever. I mean, mom, sister and me was really amazed by his skill.

For sure, I haven't seen him being like that for six years. Since he graduated from high school. Since we no longer having breakfast together before going to school. Woaahhhh. You never changed, hah. Big bratha :)

No wonder you won the eating competition back then. Such a fast-eater. It proven.

Well. Whatever your eating skill is, still we love yah. Nevermind. We will keep the secret from your wife to be, yeah. It is just between us. Brothers and sisters. :)

Keep chillin'.

WE ARE ROCK STAR!

So whatttttt???

p/s : the flying wooden spoon was  just a piece of my imagination. please dont take it serious. err. WHY SO SERIOUS??

Family Hours

Eippp eipppp. Holiday just arrived. Lets party baybehhhhhh!!:D

Hahahaha.

Selamat bercuti semuanyaaa. Sebelum tu, gong xi gong xi. Maaf terlambat update, mcm biasa, cuti di dahulukan, update kemudian. hihi.

Well. Sesungguhnya aku tak rancang apa-apa pun utk cuti kali. Ingat nak relax2 kat rumah and study utk next exam. hmm. Study. Tengok. Betapa rajinnya aku sampai cuti pun still ingat nak study. Confirm dekan ni. Confirm! Haha.

Well lagi. Sesungguhnya apa yang kita rancang tak semestinya menjadi. Kan? Perasan tak? Rancang punyalah molek, atur tarikh hari masa semua ok dh, last2 tak jadi. Mesti korang penah alami situasi mcm tu walaupun sesaat kan. Confirm punyalah. Aci lawan kerat jari.

Ok. Nak flashback balik apa yang telah berlaku sehingga melencongkan niat suci aku.

Jumaat. 10.00 a.m.

Dalam kelas dah tak mampu nak fokus, asyik jeling menjeling je jam handset. Ok. sabar, sabar. Lepas habis kelas, otw nak pergi kolej kakak, nampak kereta bapak lintas depan jalan, terus jadi overdose. Nampak kereta mcm nampak rumah. Tahan kereta mcm pengemis, terus naik. Semua orang yang lalu lalang tercengang-cengang. Bapak i ok. Bapak i. You all jgn nak kotor sgt otak tu. hihik.

12.00 p.m.

Lepas habis packing barang and sumbat dlm bonet kereta, dah ready nak balik. Tapi... tapi... bapak singgah dkt seberang jaya pulak. Ada hal dengan my paksu. Katenyeeeee. Btw, sepupu aku ikut sekali, so bapak dia kirimkan dia dekat kami sementara nak berurusan. Tunggu punyalah tunggu. Sampai pukul 2 tak selesai berurusan lagi. Kami dalam kereta dah mcm OHH DAMN! Tepi jalan pulak tu. Lastly, selesai jugak. Sebagai balasan, sepupu aku nak ikut kitaorang balik sp. AWESOME. Apa lagi, dalam kelapa otak dah pikir macam2.

8.30 p.m.

Bila kami dah bertiga. Tak ada istilah lepak rumah je. Jangan harap. Tak payah nak tunggu esok. Malam tu jugak pergi karok. Tonight we are YOUNG.

Bermula dari situlah aku dah lupa niat asal aku nak balik study, buat assignment and blablabla. Keesokannya kitaorang pergi ber'boling la apa lagi. Boling dah diiktirafkan sebagai family sports. Dan juga antara sukan yang wajib dipertandingkan time raya. weeee~ *bila nak raya ni?*

Hee :) Meriah wak..

semua sempoi and sporting.

Dah penat2 main boling. Next day, kitaorang pergi Feringgi Beach pulak. Nampak tak permainan dia kat situ. Mula2 karok, lepas tu boling, then pantai. Perghhh. What a coincidence. Semua tu tak tersenarai lagsung dalam perancangan nak bercuti. Sumpah. Btw, thanks to my bro sebab merelakan diri menjadi driver kitaorang merangkap sponsor utk cuti kali. You rocks, bro!

Jap. Nak tempek gambar pantai pulak. Jangan jeles :P

Currently enjoying ourself at Batu Feringgi Beach.

Lets cuci mata baybehhhhh.

nyiahahaha! namo nakal2 nahh nak adik manessss ;)

Btw, kitaorang berkesempatan naik bananananaboat. hihik. Walaupun menjerit sampai nak tercabut anak tekak, enjoy! Walaupun sampai tercabut getah rambut, enjoy. Asalkan org sponsor. kehkehkeh. Tapi gambar meronggeng atas bananaboat ada kat sepupu aku. So, takleh nak tempek sini. wuwuwuwu.

Ok. Janji yang ni last pic.

terserlah ke'gangster-an aku di situ.

Lu sapa? Wa raja! Lu berak rata-rata hahaha

chillax :D

Dah, malas nak bebel lelama. gua chiaoooo dulu. Gong xi gong xi to my 'sayangs'!